A Vamp Rose Diary

To all of you, especially childhood enemies and strangers.

I don't care Dawn Fartman, for whatever your reasons of stresses you had.
Punching me on my arm made a bruises that I'll never forgive you.
I never forgotten until to this day it means nothing, you're just same as that annoying fruit fly.
Oh Elmo! Couldn't shut the damn mouth of yours. 
FYI, you are a mother & a holy fucker, good luck at raising your whiny babies.

Barbie Gomez, you were nothing but a jealous horse faced skinny bitch blondie latino doll.
With your BF N ans S. Carolina Santos, both of you who don't even know what I truly love and hate.
Well the fact is I love & always be Spice Girls fan. 
I'm proud to say I'm an anglophile. If you don't know what that means then go google it.
Or probably both of you are just plain jealous because you couldn't do a simple times tables.
or is it the cursive handwriting? 
Well, that isn't my problem being complimented by fourth grade teacher.
That's because I had an ability, not to get an attention or show it off.
I don't consider to be a teacher's pet, so don't get so twisted if both of you have still grudge against me.
Don't get into my personal space for what I love.
No wonder why I hated both you, for your selfishness and stupidity.

And any of you think I'm the one who has issues then you weren't paying attention.
That same goes to people who bluntly assumes that once they look at me,
I'm chinese or korean.
Yes, I'm Asian and I'm Japanese, you stupid poor educated individuals.
The funny thing along with this I had many people come up to me:

 What is the difference between Japanese and Chinese, I mean aren't they the same?
First of all, that is plainly stupidest question. That is same as is Spanish and French are the same.
The answer is No, they are same continent but different in languages as well as culture wise. 
So, harsh as it may sounds go back to school and reeducate yourself. 

 Are you Chinese?
This to me is very absurd question! Simply rude, is just the same as someone comes up to your face and say "Are you Lesbian?" If you are then fine but just assuming it by looking at me because of my facial features is just totally ticks me off. Sure, I'm not a blonde, white beauty supermodel of Victoria's Secret but I would definitely love if  people were more well minded people would ask in more polite question: What is your nationality? Or What is your nationality background?
Note: It's common sense.

 Wow your English is perfect.
Thanks, I'll take that as a free compliment. I was born and raised in Florida so, technically English is my first language. Obviously, I do speak fluently in both languages: English and Japanese, as well as reading and writing. It's interesting that I was told that my first language is not English but Japanese. Well you are wrong, I didn't fully understand Japanese not until at around 5. Then from there I started to go Sony's Japanese School in Boca Raton, FL way while back. 

 I like they way you speak, you don't have any accent.
Again, thank-you. But, I think people who speaks with an accent is cute and unique. There are some people who think is unattractive but they're wrong. If you do have an accent then there's nothing with you, you're fine and perfect the way you speak it's non-bilingual or people who only speaks one language typically English. I must say that I have ability to speak British accent and Oh my I can't shut-up! Lol!

So there, I very damn prod of who I am, what I can do, and I what I have achieved so far.
Dare me to threaten or hate me all you want.
Because I don't give an ass rats of what you do because for that I Am God's precious child.

Oh speaking of God's child, you know what Barbie Gomez or horse look alike lover face,
how dare you tell me that I'll end up going to hell.
For your info, I'm a Buddhist or preferably a Shinto Buddhist but I also consider more as spiritual.
I remembered when we were kiddos way back then you discussed to me about Sundays church.
Of course, what did we know back then.
But for you, telling me or threatening me saying to me that if I didn't attend church that I would end up
in HELL?! 
Shame on you for saying and any of you agreeing with her.
You're pathetic and that your mother and a fucker of 2 babies.
It's disturbing and I hope your kids are better than you or worse like you.

Regardless of mine or any individual religious backgrounds or what you believe in.
I do know one thing and as a fact.
He who is God created us with nothing but compassion and equal beings.
Attacking for someone because there different beliefs is ridiculous.
He didn't condemn us if we didn't go his sanctuary or pray at church nor 
punish us if we grovel or bend our knees while praying.
He created us and our own free will to pursue and complete the mission.
He is the only loving us no matter what we do.
Even for a bitch who said I would go to Hell. 

So, say whatever to or do to me.
Because you can never take my love and my knowledge.
For that my soul gets stronger every challenges or hardships I encounter.
For karma awaits every direction and depending how you show me your true self.
Good or bad, it's your call.
I was meant to be solid as a golden, silver as soul and platinum as divine being.

You mess my positive vibe and I mess your weakness and shame.

Have a wonderful I-don't-give-fuck attitude with my smile,
Vampress

You know what Brandi, I've noticed that you've changed in a whole lot better.
You really deserve a pat on a back.
I was really impressed of your true side and that is kindness.
Even tough today is TGIF (not the restaurant.)
You actually made my day and that same goes to other employees at Whole Foods.
God I wish that I could work at Whole Foods.

The positive vibes, natural selections of Beauty products.
Organic vegetables, fruits, and other beverages.
Respect & Love Earth.
Supporting charities, to grow and to educate other cultural values.
I mean it's full of wonders of what you can do to make a difference.

Difference that you can go a path of your own better you.
Whole Foods you are A W E S O M E.
Amazing
Wonderful
Eco-friendly
Superior
Optimistic
Magical
Educating to other people in a whole different view.

Peace, Love and Namaste,
Vampress

 I really hope everyone had a wonderful Holidays or Christmas. And for those of you who didn't get their presents then let me say first thing, my opinions are mine and I'm not here to offend anybody but to cool the fury because we really don't need to UBS or FedUp about it. Lets take a deep breath and exhale, do that for about 3 times or more if needed. If that calm zen isn't working for you well, I don't know what else to say but you either need to take your hunger of anger to any Anger Management or take the chill the F*** pill down. I don't understand for just a one or more of wrapped up gift with a big fancy bow that could be used on your top of your head for some fashion show future or whatever makes majority of you be so impatient and ruthless. Sure, we do get angry for a good reasons not for something materialistic or something that is going to make you life-threatening medical jeopardy. When I heard about how the UPS or FedEx is trying to get their asses job to deliver the packages ASAP. Here comes the oh classic rant on Twitter, facebook and other social media demanding their precious treasures right to their door as if everybody is special royals.

 As absurd as it sounds, majority of you are selfish. There I said it and honestly, I don't care because I am not like the common stubborn big crying baby who wants it NOW! You see, you can at least be grateful that you have something important around you. There are many countries that doesn't get to celebrate Christmas, like they got hit by a natural disaster or in the war zone and can't be at peace. One thing that I'm grateful, is that I have my family and friends, as well as people who had been very sincere to us. Why can't any of you who are so mad, don't realize the positive side during the Holidays. Even if I didn't get a present for Christmas, I would never complain. The only thing I ever want is more people who can love, care for one another and be at peace. Not killing, picking on someone because of their disable or who they are, jealously, and other inhumane actions. 

 On the other hand, I could understand for being angry at them. Stealing, that's what happened to my birthday when my aunt sent me a gift card through the mail. Unfortunately, they couldn't track down the thief and so he/she probably used on a little splurge. That's fine because as I mentioned before and always, what goes around comes around. Karma is my sweetest thing as little fun revenge and I hope that thief got fired or feels bad in health or gets into accident where there is going to be a big ass fine on her payment. So on that part of fear, I could understand at the same time. But that doesn't mean, you have the right to be in the verbal attack with your negative motives. It's called Keep Calm and Stop BSing. 

 There's New Years around the corner, just remember there is another Christmas coming again in 2014. So there is no need to be fury, try remember the happy times. I'm not trying to be funny while any of you are still grumpy but I'm saying this so you can control your emotions. I am human, I understand but I know how to be patient and be humble. Maybe if more people be simple then the simple happier person you can be.

Have a wonderful day with a simple smile,
Vampress

 It's been a while ago, blurred memories that I will never forget nor forgive. I remember that being a kid was fun, happy and innocent time to be smiling and laughing about. But that was not the case when I got into fifth grade and she was the one who was mean, jerk and a wanting all of things or a materialistic bitch. Liz, or should I say then a little girl who was nothing but stupid. Stupid in manipulating nasty girl who parents came from Mexico and I'm pretty sure she has been through a lot. Trust me, my parents immigrated from Japan, me being born & raised in America seemed nothing right? Wrong, you see Liz, you state don't judge me, you can't handle half of what I have dealt with; there is a reason I do the things I do & there is a reason I am who I am. Well that sounds perfectly just like myself, you took that from me and the fact is you can't handle what you did in your past. What you did to me what not only wrong but very sad and a cruel thing of you. And you are right, I may never know what you had been through but I do now one thing for sure and the truth: I did nothing to you, I apologized to you for nothing that I clearly remembered doing nothing wrong, and if I did it was that I only defending myself because I was insecure simply I was a child at that time. 
 Shame on you for making feel like I was piece of inhumane, you, katie and sara. You three were nothing but ugly, mean jerks, but it's okay what's past is long gone. However, let me say this to you Liz, I feel so much better and everlasting grateful all because of my wonderful Mother. If it wasn't for her strength of steel, words of wisdom and most of all spiritual support then I would have never gone far. What about you yourself? Oh, that's right, but first pardon my hurting your feelings or bluntly saying harsh to you personally about your madre; you can't even bare the fact your mommy is gone. How does it feel? I do know it's hard for you that even it takes time to heal when you lose someone dearly it hurts. That's right, you should have controlled your kindness a long time ago and maybe, if you were bit more open-hearted and showed your real kindness to me then your nasty side would have not shown. That's what happened to you and your mom, was karma, and God gave you a notice that He wanted to let you know what you did wrong when you were a bad kid. 
 I find it hard and unbelievable that you are a mother yourself. Who is the child father? One night stand of your unattractive sexual slut desire? Or is it to show that you have really changed since then. Not that I have grudge against you now but I'm truly disgusted of your junk selfies, and #yourmakeupjunkcrap snapping to your instagram. Sure you payed your shit with your own hard working money but where is other financial support comes from? I'm sure it's from benefits of taxes that my parents or myself we pay for, such a waste and then you go off spending into bling of shoes, clothes, and more more of crap. It's madness, and that is your reason? Ironically, you never changed and with your posted inspirational motivated words, it doesn't even match your true identity, it's all fake. Why even bother being so nice, then act like a tough bitch, you got some issues more than mine. 
 Just months ago, I have seen you at store with your kid and I was like OMG. I hope you don't see each other because you are ill-willed and ill-educated woman who has no respect to her own body and spiritually. I may sound I don't know what I'm talking about but I exactly know what I'm getting to my point. Wishing everyday that someday you regret on how you treated me because you don't know who I really am. I said many times before and I don't care if there are any of you annoyed about it. I highly recommend for those of you curious about to rent or watch a movie called The Last Samurai. I am very damn proud to be Japanese and you can never take my pride or greatness of my ancestry spirit. 
 Lastly, stop acting like your a nice buddha, you are not a buddhist you're catholic. Bitch.

Vampress

 For all these years, everywhere we go we say "Merry Christmas & A Happy New Year." Now, we say "Happy Holiday & A Happy New Year." Before any of you, regardless of your beliefs or your religious background (especially Christians) complain about it know this: Christians are not only religion that is practiced in the U.S. or any other nations. When I think back, I would think that even though I am not a Christian, I felt awkward saying "Merry Christmas" to people who aren't even a Christian! The reason why we or for those of you who are well aware ( kudos and have a pat on a back) Happy Holidays sounds more unity and respect. 
 It's not that I'm dissing people that are Christians, I have many friends that are Christmas and have a great respect for them. I'm Buddhist and Spiritual as vice versa they too respect and love me as well. No matter what you believe, practice or even if you are atheist or agnostic, we only know one deity and that is God. Of course I'm no monk, priest, bishop or whatever leader type, He wants us to love and respect one another in one harmony. I just simply don't understand that why we created such bully and/or hate but that's not what He wanted us to do; although, He is only one who will always forgive us. I think Happy Holidays is the new Greeting word verbally or words that we should get used to to wish someone a Great Xmas.
 So, take a time of wonderful moments with your friends and family. You know yo can always start a new beginning, forget your worst ones but treasure your most unforgettable moments that you have accomplished and carry it with a proud smile. This is the moment to glance back and move on, New Years is the most critical point to observe and strive for what you're willing to do next. Challenge, change your bad habits or whatever your plans are you can do it. So, wrap up your present and always show your true feelings of happiness by simply saying "Thank-you and have a Wonderful Holidays & A Happy New Year to you, your family, and friends."

Sincerely, 
Vampress
  

 Whole Foods, there are many ways to describe this place. Welcoming, friendly, employees are totally awesome hippies, Foods that are not full of shit but good for you, organic and delicious. First time I went there was like huh? But as I was more aware to become a better and healthier person that more I love going to shop at this store and not to mention best service than any other grocery store ever. I'm considered myself be well and your spirituality senses will dwell yogi. Oh, I look forward to become flexible foxy yogi master in the future! Lol.